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There are days when the world wants too much from me.  When motherhood demands more than I have to give, and all I can do it toddle along, hoping I’m not dropping too many things. Jessie is sixteen, in the throes of college prep and agonies over sophomore year.  Too many classes, too much homework, …

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It looks different than I thought it would.  I don’t know that I had a lot of ideas about what my mid-forties would be like when I was younger, but I know that it feels differently than I thought it would. Forty five is scared.  Not all the time, and not overwhelmingly, but it’s a …

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Nobody wants to hear that her child is legally blind. Which is part of my problem, I don’t like the fact that he’s visually impaired.  I haven’t come to terms with the reality of it.  I still think, on some level that I know damn well is completely irrational, that if he isn’t labeled as …

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I can no longer shop at Children’s Place.  Or Gymboree.  Or even the little kid section at Target. Julie’s built differently from her older sister.  Jessie was shorter, she fit in her age clothes from the time she was tiny.  When she was four months old, she fit into 3-6 months.  When she was seven …

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We were at the sukkah celebration earlier tonight.  With three kids of varying ages, I’ve been going to the religious school sukkah celebration for fifteen years now.  But AP Stats homework got in the way for one kid, and another one fell asleep before I left, so it was just me and my youngest tonight. …

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I mean, I really hate cooking.  Given the choice, I’d either eat out every night, and have PB&J or tuna fish if I was in the mood to stay home. But with three kids, and a budget, plus a weird desire for them to have a somewhat healthy diet, cook I must.  And again, I …

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I dropped off Sam’s IEP paperwork today. I’ve been planning to do it for a month or so now.  I was just afraid. I don’t ever want to repeat what happened to him.  Which is, of course, an understatement and too obvious to actually be what I’m saying.  But the two to three months prior …

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It was a weird sort of summer for us. Jessie had a ton of homework, and several scheduling snafus that led to her doing an enormous amount of work for a class she won’t take until next year.  Sam announced happily that he’s ready to think about going back to school, and Julie spent an …

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I don’t believe he’s going to be twelve years old. When I look back over the past twelve years, I find myself thinking about how I’m never quite sure what I’m doing with Sam.  He was my first natural birth, because Jessie was a c-section, and I had no idea how to push.  Everyone kept …

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We don’t handle the heat well. I mean, we try.  But my family is not one that enjoys weather extremes.  We are made for the in-between seasons, balmy spring days, when the leaves are just poking out and the air finally feels warm after months of icy hell.  Pumpkins and cranberries, when the foliage is …

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